I am an addict
I didn’t choose to be an addict.
But I did choose to let it ruin my life
At first it was fun
And then it was habitual.
It grew into a need
That became my obsession.
Addiction has stolen much from me.
My health, my family, my finances
It’s torn all those who love me, apart.
I know I have a problem, and I feel bad… sometimes.
Until I don’t. Then, look out!
I will use whatever and whoever, to get my next fix.
Please don’t take it personally,
I’m not trying to hurt you on purpose.
It’s just I want, what I want
When I want and…
I want it, NOW!
Should you get in my way
I’ll become obnoxious with you.
I have no mercy.
I will call you names and yell at you.
I will tell you – you don’t love me.
I will lay guilt trips on you
And lie to you, so don’t expect
To hear the truth from me.
It’s true what they say.
If my lips are moving, I’m probably lying.
Again, it’s nothing personal.
I might even become abusive.
Or threaten to kill myself.
I am most angry with you,
When you tell me no.
I hate the word no.
No INFURIATES me,
No means I’ll try harder.
And work on you until…
I wear you down.
When you tell me no,
You threaten my addiction.
If you want to save my life
Tell me no, anyway.
If you want to make me happy
(and risk me overdosing on your dime)
Then keep enabling me.
Whatever you do, don’t feel sorry for me,
Instead, go to war with my addiction.
You might wonder why I would tell you this
I’m telling, because I am an addict.
An addict… In recovery.
Lorelie Rozzano
www.jaggedlittleedges.com
allison figueroa
Hi my name is allison. Im 34 yrs old. I am addictmy drug of choice was heroin and crack. But thank god i finally got clean on April 15th 2011. And im so greatful for that . It wasnt easy. By the age of 14 yrs old i was using heroin. And by 17 i was smoking crack and selling my body to support my habit. I was in and out of jail and rehabs. I didnt want to live anymore but i didnt know how to stop living the way that i was.. but i did FINALLY get clean. And i couldn’t of done it without realizing i had a problem. Before i go i just wanted to reach out to other addicts to let them know that it is possible to get and stay clean. If i did it i know ANYONE CAN
Lorelie
Hi Allison,
Thanks you for sharing your story. Congrats on your sobriety!
carla wagner
I am looking for a post I saw yesterday. Cant find it. I wanted to post it on FB to help other enablers
Lorelie
Do you remember the name of the post?