A Hole In My Soul

There’s a hole in my soul
That I can’t control
It makes me cry
And wonder why?
It’s depth has no bottom
It grows bigger each day
I feed it pills, drugs and booze
But it won’t go away
It’s a hungry monster,
And always wants more
It not satisfied ever
It keeps me poor.
I bought it new clothes
And my budget was sunk
Twenty drinks later I was drunk.
The hole was still there. So I got high
I snorted cocaine and and started to lie
My nose got sore, so I turned to crack
Once you smoke that, there’s no going back.
I was awake for days. I needed to sleep
Chasing the dragon, I started to weep
Was there no end, could my hole be hell?
Did hell live inside me? I was so unwell.
I sought the syringe, but couldn’t poke it in
I fought myself wondering, when will I win?
I found a man, but I let him go
I was to busy using and he didn’t know
I was a broken place, where love couldn’t grow
One day the hole swallowed me. It wanted me DEAD.
But something rather strange, happened instead.
From the shadows of darkness, emerged a light
That whispered words of love and told me to fight
It held my hand, and lead me away
And stayed by my side, every day.
It gave me compassion and worth and self-esteem,
It taught me kindness and love and to never be mean.
WE planted flowers and watched them grow.
Joy, Peace, and Hope, all in a row.
The light grew brighter, I was found.
The hole was gone, it was nowhere around.
Off in the darkness, someone cries.
I’ll take them my light and answer their whys.
WE plant seeds of hope, in pits of despair.
Because holes are filled, by all who care.