What do you do, when you can’t live or die?
When all you wonder is why, God, why?
Back when addiction was running the show
I knew I was dying, but I didn’t want to go
Dope sick in bed, I prayed to God one day
Then held my breath fearing, what he might say
Was God a vacant place? Was he really there?
Could I believe in something? Would I dare?
Would God judge me? Would he laugh in my face?
Could I trust him? Was God a safe place?
How could he fix me? What would he do?
I’d never sought God before. I didn’t have a clue
I closed my eyes and waited and felt like a nerd
Then God told me things, that I’d never heard
Though not by voice, nor by word
Images and colors came to mind
I’m a child, I’m laughing and trying to find
A bug, that escaped a clear glass jar
That bug is me and I’ve traveled far
I strayed from home, and I got lost
Getting high was my solution but at what cost!
Dope stole my morals, worth, and wanted more
Getting up each day, became such a chore
I was my own worst enemy, I was killing my soul
I lost teeth and weight. Drug abuse took its toll
But I wasn’t finished yet, there was more to be done
Another toke, shot, and pill. It wasn’t fun
I was dead on my feet,
But my heart still beats
Yet I wasn’t alive
My body just a place, for my disease to thrive
God heard my prayers, and he held me aloft.
His love was unconditional and oh, so soft
He began to rebuild me. He opened my eyes
So I could see clearly, a lifetime of lies
God gave me courage to stand on, and hope for wings
He filled my heart with gladness, for all good things
God set me free and I learned to fly
In God’s hands, I soar high
Lorelie Rozzano
www.jaggedlittleedges.com
Liz perry
i need to send this and much more of your post to the many addicts around me. Can I use them with your permission. I talk about your books all the time. I first purchased your kindle then I purchased both of your books. I want to stop and help addicts but never being one people don’t listen. I have watched so many lose everything through addiction including their lives. I don’t believe in the the term “higher power” I believe in the almighty God and through him I can do all things. Help me if you can. I have so much to say and nobody listens.
Lorelie
Hi Liz,
Please use what you need. Together WE really do make a difference. Please visit me on face book and feel free to share your story.
All the best!